THE PAIN WON’T GO....

THE HATED IS STILL IN MYSELF..

IT’S LIKE I WILL NEVER LET IT GO..

EVEN I ACCEPTED WHAT THEY DO TO ME..

THE HATE FEELING IS IN ME..

I HATE THE WAY THEY TRY TO CONTROL ME..

I HATE THE WAY THEY THINK HOW USELESS AND CAN’T DO ANYTHING I AM

I HATE THE WAY THEY USE ME FOR THEMSELVES GOOD..

I HATE THEM THE WAY THEY ONLY MAKE ME IN A GROUP WHEN IN A BAD SITUATION..

I HATE THEM WHEN THEY ABANDON ME WHEN THEY PLAN FOR SOMETHING GOOD..

I HATE THEM THE WAY THEY TRY TO GET RID OF ME...

YES..

I FEEL ABANDON IN MY OWN PLACE..

BUT I GET OVER IT...

YES,,,

I FEEL HURT WHEN THEY KICK ME OUT..

BUT I GET OVER IT TOO...

I GET OVER IT BECAUSE I DON WANT TO GET SO MUCH HATED..

BUT I GUESS I’M WRONG...

IT HAPPENED ANYWAYS..

MORE WORSE TO BE EXACT..

WHY I DIDN’T TELL EM FACE TO FACE..

SOMEONE WILL SAY IT GOOD THING TO DO...

BUT FOR ME..

WHAT’S FOR..??

IT WILL ATTACK ME BACKK..

THEY WILL SAY IT JUST MY IMAGINATION..

OR JUST MY FEELING THAT I BEEN LONE MYSELF..

THEY WILL SAY THIS ALL HAPPEN BECAUSE OF MY BAD ATTITUDE..

BUT..

WHAT THEY WILL SAY IS NOT THE SAME AS WHAT THEY DID..

IT REALLY HURT..

BUT I KEEP THE PAIN TO MYSELF..

OH PLEASE..

YOU ARE NOT GOOD BY YOURSELF..

THEY CAN’T JUDGE ME AFTER KNOWING THE BAD SIDE OF MYSELF..

THEY NOT AN ANGEL THEMSELVES...

YOURE AS BAD AS MINE..

I WROTE THIS NOT HOPING THEY GONNA READ THIS..

COZ I KNOW THEY DON’T KNOW THIS WRITING EXIST..

MAYBE THEY NOT EVER KNOW THIS BLOG OF MINE IS EXIST..

I BET THEY DON’T EVEN KNOW MUCH BOUT ME..

EVEN THEY KEEP SAYIN THEY CARE...

WHAT DID THEY CARE ACTUALLY???

I’M NOT ANGRY..

OKAY MAYBE A LITTLE..

BUT I JUST CAN TURNED THE ANGRINESS TO HATE FEELING AND GET OVER IT..

I JUST DON’T KNOW HOW TO FIGHT..

MAYBE IT IS NOT THE WAY I BEEN RAISED...

AND MAYBE ‘GET OVER IT’ AND DON’T KNOW HOW TO FIGHT’ MAKE EVERYONE THINK I’M EASY TO DEAL WITH..

THEY NOT EVEN THINK HOW SENSITIVE I AM..

THEY THINK MY SENSITIVENESS IS SOMETHING ANNOYED WITH ME..

MAYBE AT PAST I SHOWED MY SENSITIVENESS..

BUT NOW I TRY TO OVERCOME AND CONTROL IT..

AND WHAT DO I GET???

SAME SITUATION AND EVEN WORSE CONSITION OF MY LIFE...

I USED TO LOVE STUDY..

I USED TO HAVE A SPIRIT EVERYTIME I START A NEW SEMESTER AT MY COLLEGE..

NOW I DON’T FEEL IT ANYMORE..

IT MUST BE LOST SOMETHING...

I DON’T EVEN LIKE IT...

WHAT EXACTLY I’M FEELING NOW??

YES...

I IN FEAR, SCARE, LOST, MUCH DEPRESS, HURT, PAINFUL, AND SO MUCH HATE IN MYSELF...

I DON’T KNOW THIS..

BUT WHAT I KNOW THE HATE FEELING HAS GIVEN ME A CONFIDENT TO FACE EM..

EVERYDAY!!!!!

HOW CAN I MAKE THIS RIGHT??

I REMEMBER WHEN I’VE BEEN WROTE ABOUT MY FEELING BACK THEN..

IT IS SOUND LIKE THIS..

........................

hari yang bahagia yang aku tunggu2 akan datang jua kepadaku

hari tanpa perlu aku memikirkan apa orang lain fikir terhadapku

hari tanpa perlu aku menangis kerana perbuatan orang lain kepadaku

hari tanpa perlu aku merayu kepada orang lain supaya menerima aku

hari tanpa perlu aku mengadu kepada alam maya ini dan keseorangan

apa jua yang menimpa aku yakin hari itu pasti akan tiba jua.......................................

I HOPE THE DAY THAT BRING ME HAPPINESS THAT I’VE BEEN WAITING WILL COME TO ME SOMEDAY...

THE DAY THAT I WILL NOT THINK WHAT OTHERS THINK OF ME..

THE DAY WITHOUT CRYING BECAUSE OF OTHERS..

THE DAY WITHOUT BEGGING OTHER TO ACCEPT ME SO BAD...

THE DAY WITHOUT WROTE BOUT MY MIND SHOUTING IN THIS BLOG...

I REALLY HOPE ANYTHING THAT HAPPENS WILL BRING A GOOD LUCK IN FUTURE..

I WILL KEEP TRYING TO CONVINCE AND TELL MYSELF..

NOT LET THEM CONTROL MY LIFE..

DON’T LET THEM TAKE THE CONFIDENCE LEVEL IN YOU..

BECAUSE AS LONG AS YOU CARE ABOUT WHAT THEIR THINKING TO YOU IT WILL CRACK YOU DOWN...

YOU AS GOOD AS YOURSELF..

EVEN GREAT !!!!

THIS WAS ONE LONG POST...

IT IS BECAUSE I’VE BEEN PLAN IT, FEEL IT, KEEP IT,,

SINCE I GOT THIS PLACE...

AND I KEEP IT TO MYSELF...

I’VE BEEN TORTURING MYSELF BY KEEP IT AND LET IT BLOW INSIDE OF MY HEAD AND HEART...

AND ITS BLEEDING AND NOT BEEN HEAL...

WHAT KEEP ME FOR POST THIS??

IT IS COZ I CAN’T LET IT LOCK IN ME ANY LONGER..

I KNOW I DON’T KNOW SOMEONE I CAN TALK TO..

EVEN I FOUND ONE, I WILL NOT TO SHARE MY HARD TIME WITH ANYBODY...

I CAN’T LET PEOPLE CARRY MY BURDEN TOGETHER..

IT JUST CRUEL..

EVERBODY HAVE THEIR OWN HARD TIME..

AND I DO NOT ADDING IT MUCH...

AS LONG I CAN BE PATIENT..

AS LONG I CAN KEEP MYSELF ON RIGHT TRACK..

I WILL BE ALWAYS HOPING AND PRAY FOR HAPPINESS...

AND I HOPE EVERY HARD MOMENT I’VE BEEN INTO,,

WILL BE A SWEET MEMORIES THAT I WLL BE LAUGHTER AT IT 

IN THE FUTURE..

p/s: it's not i'm not happy with my life now..

but I have to let out my burden here..

I just can't lock it in myself anymore..

I really love my friend, family, and all people that love me and I love...

You guys are important to me..

Dalam Kenangan...Allahyarham Sudirman HJ Arshad..

Hari ini genap 19 tahun penghibur lagenda antarabangsa kebanggaan rakyat Malaysia meninggalkan kita..


Nama Allahyarham Sudirman Haji Arshad begitu sinonim dengan masyarakat Malaysia terutama mereka yang berkecimpung dalam industri hiburan...

Nama beliau bukan saja terlakar di dalam negara sahaja malah beliau tetap diingati dan disanjungi peminat di luar negara..


Allahyarham yang menghembuskan nafasnya yang terakhir pada 22 Februari 1992, di rumah kakaknya di Kuala Lumpur merupakan penghibur yang versatile dan disanjungi akan sikapnya yang sangat merendah diri dan amat memikirkan tentang peminat-peminatnya.. ini dapat dilihat dalam lagu-lagunya yang merangkumi seluruh rakyat negara ini..


Lagu-lagunya tidak hanya berkisar tentang cinta malah menggambarkan kehidupan masyarakat. Contohnya lagu Aku Penganggur, Pesan Abang, Apa Khabar Orang Kampung dan banyak lagi. 


Peminat-peminatnya pasti tidak akan melupakan sebuah konsert yang pernah beliau adakan di Jalan Chow Kit yang telah direkod di Malaysia Book of Records...


Allahyarham juga amat aktif dalam industri hiburan...Bakatnya tidak terhenti di bidang nyanyian sahaja malah di bidang yang lain juga seperti pelakon dan penggubah lagu..

Beliau juga yang merupakan seorang peguam dan usahawan ini, amat bijak mengambil hati peminat-peminatnya... Hampir setiap konsert atau persembahan beliau akan menunjukkan skil lukisan nya dan menghiburkan penonton dalam waktu yang sama...

Penyanyi yang sinonim dengan lagu-lagu patriotik ini,telah memenangi banyak anugerah di dalam negara mahupun di luar negara...

Sepanjang penglibatan Allahyarham dalam industri seni, beliau telah menghasilkan 18 buah album dalam bahasa melayu dan 2 buah album dalam bahasa Inggeris..


Allahyarham Sudirman telah dimasukkan ke ICU Pusat Perubatan Tawakkal KL pada tahun 1991, kerana dilaporkan pengsan.. Sepanjang terlantar di sana, ahli keluarganya terus merahsiakan keadaan penyakitnya sehinggalah beliau menghembuskan nafas terakhir pada pukul 4 pagi, 22 Februari 1992...


Kehilangan beliau tetap dirasai walaupun sudah 19 tahun beliau meninggalkan kita..
Tidak kira tua atau muda, semuanya merasai kehilangan beliau....


Sama-samalah kita menyedekahkan Al-Fatihah kepada beliau..

Dalam Kenangan

Lagu syahdu dari Allahyarham Sudirman yang menjadi kegilaan pendengar...

Which one???

Which one do you prefer???
This post I want to talk about

How life is gonna be when we are single??

or

How life is gonna be when we have beloved one (couple)??

of coz many people that have bf/gf will choose life wit her/him is better..
and so the single one...

when I think bout it..
both of it has advantage and disadvantage
depend on that person personality...

When we have the beloved one,,
of coz we have a place that we can talk to
can talk bout our problem,,
accompany when we feel down..
share a happy moment together...

BUT..
When we didn't have the person that we love yet,,
don feel down..
it is not bad as it seem...
we can also enjoy this live although alone..
You can still create happy moment wit yourself...
DON'T forget you still have friends..
They will accompany you either sad or happy situation..

But when I think again..
have some people can't live alone..
I mean they need some one they can share their love..
Sometimes,,I saw it so desperately..(not all of em..)

I agree when we have boyfriend or girlfriend in our life..
we feel like our world is perfect enough..
But think about other couple that don't have criteria that I mention above..
They may think live alone is a better option..

So, now a single one want to have couple..
and the couple one (that not happy) want to be single...

then,,
For my view,,
I think its great to have a beloved one by our side..
that can take care of us..
but for people that single and still lookin' for the right ones..
don't feel down or ashamed..
we must believed someone out there will be waitin' for us..
But it not a time yet we found em...


 p/s: happy when see my friends is happy wit their boyfriend..
That make me think that still have some guy out there that have been treated their girl nicely and well-treated..

TraiLEr!!!???

This is my trailer assignment for My Audio Dubbing subject in my college...
Not perfect..but this is such amateur trailer...
copyright to those film...

This assignment need me to create a trailer based on three movie and put it as a new movie..

My movie was..

• Harry Potter and Deathly Hallow (Part 1)
• Street Dance
• Step Up 1

At first I don know how to put together a fantasy magical movie and dance movie...

I've been thinking for logical idea to create new story based on these 3 movie..

Then, I've come up wit that crazy idea as you can see in the video..

that is so non-logical I think..

but most important I made it success..

and my assignment was done

(although 1 month pass due date)

but at least I done it..

So, now is up to my lecturer Sir Ali Azlan to grade it...

p/s: At first I think want to create using Adobe Premier but it is so late so I decided just used Movie Maker to make it easier..

love create such video like this..

I have so much funn...!!!!

ENJOY!!!!

 

Oh Miss BLOGGIE...

very sad to think about my college and my study life right now..
but,,I want to share it here..

I'm in my final year of my study in broadcasting..
but,  I feel the study spirit, the excitement, the fun..its all GONE!!!

Now I feel so confusing...
The spirit went to shooting is all disappear...

Now, I feel I want to stay at my hometown wit my family...
:(

When I think about it..
I guess it is maybe of some reason that happen to my life now...
so miserable...

First, I found I am stuck in financial problem...
I need money to do my Final Year Project
I need it to survive on food..
and such thing that need money..
maybe that a biggest reason that my mood and my mind not in excellent condition to focus in study right now...

Second,,I found my life in KL have no fun anymore...
so many problem..
either cause from others and my stupid behaviour...

Third,,I can't focus on my study coz I need to think about searching for a job..
it is important coz I need a job to settle my miserable in first point above...
that's become tension when I keep thinking about it...
if I found a job, I still need to think about that first point above.
I need FARE to go to work...

then, I keep thinking my family,,
and how I will trouble them so much to settle my problem..
which why,,some problem I will keep to myself
as far I could handle it by myself..
as far I'm not crack and blow myself..

Oh god,,that so much trouble...
WHY it all happen to me..????!!!
Some may say it is all student life would look like..
yess...I agree!!

That's why I made it in this final semester of diploma..
then,,after this I have to think about my internship life..
What it will be look like??
It is will be as worse as it or may even worse???
or it will brighten my life there..??
and where should I be go for my intern??
oh god..
that was such thought that will miserable my brain..

now, I have to focus
FOCUS!!!!
On my life right now...
On my FYP..
On my last semester in college...

My Life???
Hope it will better day by day...

Hari Terbuka Finas 2011..

Tarikh: 13 Februari 2011

Lokasi: FINAS, Hulu Langat

aq ngan 3 org lagi budak rumah aq take part dalam hari terbuka FINAS ahad lepas..
gler enjoy walaupun panas..

kitowg kesana dengan satu tujuan untuk ujibakat untuk pencarian penyampai berita..
aq mula2 segan nk join, yela x pernah nak take part dalam mana2 ujibakat...
so menggeletar lah sikit..
Tapi bila fikir balik,,alang2 dah sampai ni,,baik ikut je audition tu..
ambik pengalaman la kata orang...
nti masa2 yang akan datang boleyh jadi guide kan..

so, aq, zana and finas g lah isi borang tu..
penat woo..
bayangkan sampai kat sana dalam kol 12 lebih,,
tapi kene tunggu sampai kol 2ptg bwu boleyh isi borg.. (wktu lunch daa...)

dah isi borg,,dok lahh menunggu giliran..
NO. 74,75,76..(tu lah nombor kitowg bertiga)

pas kitowg jalan2 jap and pegi makan lunch..
masuk blik tunggu sampai giliran kitowg dipanggil...

bila sampai je turn grup kitorg,,
so, masuk dalam studio berita tuh...time tuh dah menggigil daa...
tgn x sejuk,,tpi aq rasa bdn aq da menggigil...
heheh...nervous tuu...
mana tak nervous kann..
aq tgok setting studio dye dah mcm studio untuk pembaca berita btol..
slalu aq tgok and setting untuk projek news aq..
tapi ari tu, aq akan dok kat c2 plak...
hahahhaha...giler weyh...

lpas briefing..
and beberapa org dah lepas ujibakat,,
then nama aq plak dipanggil standby..

pas pki kot sume,,and g kat set,,
pki clip mic..
then dye swoh rehearse..
fuh,,time tu aq cbe sedaya upaya untuk x nervous..

pas cameraman bg cue..
aq baca lah...
sume ok..
then sampai satu perkataan ni,,aq dah hancur dah..
ada ke perkataan 'isian' aku leh sebut 'islam'..
hahahah..time tu dah rasa nk bangun and lari je..

pembaca berita rtm kat situ betulkan aq..
dye ingt aku x nmpk ayt tu kott...
sebnrnya aq taw, tp disebabkn nervous sume tunggang langgang...
and prompter dye gler x best...classic punye prompter..

then,,
bile recording..intro aq gler hancur..terbalik-balik..
hahah..ending aq pon sama....
serius aq x nmpk sesapa dlm bilik audition tu..
just aq and camera je aq nmpk..
tapi nervous tu masyaallah!!!
isi berita, aq baca sume smooth....
hishhh...

tu lah experience pertama aq audition..
nervous yang melampau tu buat aq sakit kpala and migrain untuk 2 hari..
hahahaha..lawak2...

tapi,,btullah org ckp kesilapan yg kite wat..
akan mengajar kita unutk lebih bersedia unutk pengalaman yang akan datang...

anyway, Hari Terbuka FINAS 2011 mmg superb!!!
thnxs Zana and Finas sebab bg courage and kata2 semangat sampai aq nk masuk ujibakat tuh...

GLEEking...

Addicted to musical-comedy drama that air in FOX channel..

GLEE

This show is genius..!!!
I can't take my eyes off that series..
I can't take my ears off all their song..

FYI, I love movie that have musical genre in there..
It is full of enjoyment..

This drama series is about a high school live and focusing on one club that name GLEE CLUB..

• How they facing problen to recruit more member in group to perform in Sectional choir show competition,,
• How they facing the club haters..
• How they work hard to win in Regional and beat their competitors..,,
• How they work on personal problem and at the same time deal with the GLEE club..
• and most important how they work hard to star be shining in each one of them...

Music that been selected in this series is commonly new to young generation,,
It is amazing classic song and once hear to it you'll be fall in love..
(and probably download it to your Ipod)

And last but not least,,
The characters is superb..
Broadway stars and tv star have been selected to be part in this series..

And this show has been gathered their fans until have been reached more than million people..
and this show have been rewarded many big award such as

Best Musical or Comedy TV Series
Best Actor and Actresss
Best Supporting Actress

and in Golden Golden Award they won for Best Televisyen Series (2 years in a row)...

Other award that have been won is in this link..
Award that have been won


Through this second season of this series..
The production have been introduced many new faces either amateur and professional actor and actress..
they are superb amazing...
The song selection was up-to-date..

More about this show you can click link above...

GLEE (1st season)
GLEE (2nd season)
Official Website

Boo-Boo and Yogi...

Really looking forward to watch this movie YOGI BEAR...

Boo-boo character is so super cute!!!
And of coz Justin Timberlake voice is been used..
(wink~wink)

This movie is been adapted from its cartoon version from year 1958..
until now this cartoon is always be my FAV cartoon ever..

YOGI BEAR CARTOON VERSION..

YOGI 3D VERSION...

Really can't wait to watch it...
Excited to watch the cute funny BOO-BOO...

FYI,,
The voice of this two amazing character was been dubbed by

DAN AYKROYD - Yogi
JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE - Boo-Boo

For More information bout this amazing funny adventure cute movie.. click below..

YOGI BEAR 2011 FILM

YOGI CARTOON VERSION

p/s: even though many people had critic bout this film (even they called it a stupid movie) I really love and excited to watch it,,